Love Completely

This past week has been one of the hardest of my life.  I could never wish this kind of pain on my worst enemy.  Hearing the news alone was gut-renching, but to see the person whom I love the most in the world suffering and not being able to do anything to help was horrible.No matter what age, losing a parent is hard.All I could do was to be there for him.  And his brother too, since his Fiance' was not allowed to leave her Residency Program in Chicago.  I know being away from him was hard on her and I can't imagine how helpless she felt being so far away, while I was here with both of them and I was completely at a loss.I really do not think I would have been able to make it through this week if not for some sweet words I received from a friend the morning after Lex's passing... "Hold him close, remind him why he chose you as his wife.  Put the vows to test before they have even been spoken.  Allow him to have his roller coaster of emotions as you never leave his side, and if he asks you to leave his side....don't go far.  They are our lives now. And I think about you during this time as you share the pain."Thank you Nic. Your words helped hold me together and remind me that even though he may be lashing out at me it is not because he is angry with at me.  He misses his best friend, his father, his buddy. I love my fiance and I want nothing more in the world than for him to be happy. Just like his father did.  He wanted for everyone to be happy and always had a big smile on his face.He would greet you at the door with a big hug and his European kisses.  There was no avoiding it.  I tried.  He would chase you.  He would always tell you that he loved you and constantly told his two sons how proud of them he was.  I know that Sam will one day be a great father too and tell our  children how much he loves them every day.  Just like his did. Always remind those you love every single day! 

I have no words.

Yesterday evening, around six o'clock Sam got one of the worst phone calls you could ever receive.His dad's best friend called to tell us that his dad had suddenly had a heart attack and passed away.

Today my post was going to be about our raining trip to OB.I am now so thankful and grateful,that we had the opportunity to go down to Sam's dad's house and spend time with him last week.

Like Father, Like Son. Last Friday at The Wharf in Orange Beach

He was only 65 years old.All of his test had shown that he was healthy.

Dinner at Lulu's last Saturday night

He was a great father, always had a smile on his face, was so proud of his two son's and told them all of the time.  He will be greatly missed and will forever be in our hearts.Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we struggle with this difficult time. 

Happy Birthday Don Juan!

I know that bloggers are supposed to be up beat and cheerful all the time, but I can't muster it today.

Last August one of my very best friends and my high school boyfriend passed away in a tragic accident. 

Today would have been his 23rd birthday.

His mom texted me last night after I was already asleep and I woke up to her text this morning that just gripped my heart.  I have not been there for her the past 8 months and I hate myself for it everyday, but I felt like it would make the pain easier for both of us to not be around each other.  I am selfish and I feel horribly guilty.

I had decided a while ago that I would take her flowers every year for his birthday and for mother's day, so today that is what I will do.  I am going to give her a gorgeous purple orchid because they continue to bloom year after year.


I miss you DG and I know you are probably shaking your head at me with that goofy smirk.  Don't worry though, I will crack one open for you tonight!

The glory days haha! We love you!

Morgan from Believe in the Sparks made this picstitch a while back and it pretty much sums up our high schools years perfectly.  She also has a recap of my Saturday night shenanigans if you want to check that out!

I hope that everyone has a great week!

 It takes effort to maintain friendships, just like any relationship!  It is worth it! Those that have been there the longest are in your life for a reason!  Be thankful!